Life Goes On

Looking back through the years, I've made a great many mistakes in life and stumbled a few more a long the way, but I've never regretted any of the steps I've taken. I'm happy now more than ever and I can truly say that I've experienced what life has to offer.

At 33, I've come to terms with what and who I am. I am gay, plain and simple... and a loud one at that. A fact of my life... and no amount of trying to change who I am, or words of wisdom from my love ones, most especially my parents, and my friends, can change who I am. I've tried to act straight before, and courted girls... but the act itself left a big void in my totality. I felt like a great cheater, cheating not only those involved, but most importantly myself. The "coming into terms" was never an easy path for me. It's like carrying a huge cross on your back and walking the streets of Jerusalem, with many people mocking, cursing and spitting on you. I think I've cried me a river with the whole experience, lol. Now, I'm like a butterfly. I can be who I am with anyone I meet and I couldn't care less if they're an ass about the whole gay thing.

I've also had some notable experiences with love and relationships. In the past, I've been with people who are pathological liars, who cheated me over and over again. I've been with someone who was my world basically but cheated on me with another guy, who knew of our relationship, lol. I guess the other guy was madly in-love with my ex so he jumped into a sexual relationship with him anyway, despite him knowing that my ex and I are a couple. No one to blame but my cheating ex at that time. The last I've heard, they are now good friends, although I would never know if they truly become a couple after I ditched my ex for cheating because I cut all communications with them. I wish them all the best in life nonetheless. I was also with someone who verbally abused me for most part of our relationship. He constantly accused me of cheating, which to this day, I couldn't understand because I know that he knows that he was the only one for me during our time. The only conclusion I can come up with is that he is guilty of his own garbage, that's why he threw it all at me. I wish him all the best as well though. Our common friends said that he is now in a relationship with someone from his work. I do pray that he learned his lessons well and that he wouldn't do the things he did to me to that other person.

These days I'm thankful that I met someone who, to best describe it, is really a heaven sent. A true partner. He is my soul mate... who understands, accepts and most of all loves me for who I am. In our two years together, we weathered out the toughest storms that life threw at us. We are stronger together than ever before and we know that we will face many more bumps and humps in the future. What's important is that we are committed to face it together. I'm happy to say that we are now planning to get married in front of our families. I know that gay marriage is not recognized in the Philippines, but I say to hell with it. Migrate to the U.S. Lol.

Life, truly goes on for me... and it gets better and better everyday...

Hudson.

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